Yesterday was a blah kinda day, It seemed to have this super high moments followed by the super low send me to bed moments. But in the midst of my day yesterday I was overcome by the feeling of gratefulness, the feeling of freedom that only Christ can give.
Yesterday I sat in a cafe all the while my phone rings and I see "kid" on the screen. My loving endearing term for the youngest of kids in my family. Followed by Hey I want to tell you something! I love when I get these phone calls from my little brother, and He wants to share life with me. He wants to include me and tell me about things!! Anyway He continues to tell me about how Haiti was and how doors are opening for him.
As we were talking I just sat there listening and thinking about how the Lord has done so much. How I remember when he was a kid who use to run around screaming and we called him caramel Popcorn because of his hair. And how I watched him grow and wanted to be a fire fighter, then a football player, then a baseball player, to back to a fire fighter, or a police officer, and how the world was his to have!
It still is, he can have it, he can dream it, he can dream as big as he wants and its accomplish-able. And the reason it can be accomplished is because he knows the he can only do it because of Christ!
As we finished our conversation my mind just got to this place of how if we love something why don't we get it? What lies do you believe that keep you from accomplishing the very thing that gives you life??
The Lord has given me this heart to disciple the nations. And so often I cut His dream in half by my little mind and lack of faith to believe that God can use me for big things. If the Lord has given me a heart to disciple, do I ask him where, how long, how many? Or do I just walk by faith and say Lord send me use, I'm your vessel.
I don't want to be a limiter of God in my life in anyway. And I say this in the midst of God trying to weed out where I cut his dreams for me in half. In the place where the Lord is saying bigger, and I'm saying but God I'm comfortable. But He's winning, and in the most gentle, humbly way. In the way of not being angry but the teacher that the Father is, teaching me to dream big with him.
When people say that dream is too big for any person to accomplish, I agree, That's why they aren't ours but His. He gives glimpse of things, and we think that's the whole picture. When in reality, its a 1 piece of a 5000 piece puzzle.
And I know He only gives me a piece because I get ahead of myself. And I would be overwhelmed if He just threw the whole box on the table and said go ahead figure it out. Hes the father that gives us piece by piece, and in time we will see from a different perspective the whole picture.
So I guess the Blog is about How am I cutting the dream?? How can I re submit myself and my life to the Lord, and let him do bigger things, then I could image with me.
It requires of me to let go, and hang on to the only that ever has been, and ever will be. Him.
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